For me blogging it can capture my thoughts for that moment, what i mean is true and real for that particular moment. I also feel better after blogging whenever i feel bad or under depression.
When you are under depression you feel the world is all against you, helpless and lonely.
Sometimes might feel you are not belong to the world and question my own existence. Today is a challenging day where i was assigned a task to do a simple reporting via email.
There is a instinct feeling that come over me something is wrong. No matter how i check through the report it still seems fine. However as a measure of security i send to my superior before i blasted it out to everyone across region. In 15 minutes, my superior reply and highlighted me 4 errors on the date where it should be September and i keep putting it as October.. I amended the 4 errors and resend again for checking and my superior reply me back
Hi eric, don't test my patient.
When i double check in the email, i actually only amended 2 errors and not 4. It was a serious careless mistake. This time i realize where something must be wrong with me.I am under stress and i suspected i got minor depression. My brother hoe classified this as Eric no.2. Eric that gone crazy or abnormal.
How to notice it? Simple.
- First sign my room started to become untidy.
- I eat a lots compare to my standard. I accept supper and eat fast too.
Some people will suggest.
XXX : Eric go for soul searching
CCC : Resign ... Get a new job
KKK: Go for a holiday
DDD: Take it easy, you only live once.
My suggestions to myself... You need to calm down yourself and do a one to one session discussion between yourself. Come out with reasons ... I mean sound reasons "WHY" i need to be strong and continue my path. I can get over this... because i believe.
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