Best motivation is come from SELF MOTIVATION

It been a lots of things happening in the month of October. From i lose my wallet,
Tyre flat , Car get hit & run, Money not enough all this slowly eat my inner energy.
I feel tired all the times , i feel demotivated , i don't want to work ,
i keep myself in house during holidays, i do a lots of self talk & others might think i am crazy, i can't sleep well every night , i feel empty and lots more.

To cut it short i am Fu*k UP to the highest of my limit. I take leave , i late to work.

I try to read books , i try to search for mentor , i try go "lepaking" to get away my attention but all this don't seems to work or it just won;t last.

I can bet if i don't get up soon, i will even lose my job and friends..
All all this started when i tend to think to much of my future..

ALL this question pop up like:

Where will i be in the next 5 years??
How can i give sense of security to people when i myself are struggling so much???
When i can run out from this RAT RACE?
When i can really enjoy life??


If i would take myself as a car gear box i am now obviously in "reverse gear"




Even though now i am still confused but i got to maintain my profesionalism in work and give out my best..

So the solution i must motivate myself and keep moving. If i remain unchanged this bad habit will follow me and can form a character on me..

Bakat must fight!!!!or just become a loser in the end of life...